I suppose everything like this starts from saying the wrong thing

But sometimes it can turn out to be the right thing

Earlier this week i had a dream that i was making fun of my mom over the phone with one of my friends
And then my dad called me to tell me that somehow she had been wired into the conversation and heard everything i said

The emotional theme to that one was emotional disgust on my mom's part and horrified regret
just so you know

Later, two nights ago, I had a dream that i had made plans to commit a gross sin. One of my other friends heard about this and she was disappointed to the point of tears

That was more centered on disappointment on my friend's part
again just so you know

Then, in reality, last night both emotions that i had dreamt were directed at me became my emotions after a conversation with my roommate

He was telling me how one of these days he's going to say nasty things to this other guy's face that lives on my floor
I said something like "If this is how you talk about him when he's not around, while you're nice to his face, then who is safe with you? What if you talk this way about me when i'm not around?"

There was a pause,
then he said
"I think you think you're better than you are."
Surprise
"At what?"
"At life."

Um, ok
emotional disgust? yes
disappointment? yes

If he thought he was answering my questions, he was wrong
I asked "what if you feel" not "what do you feel"
I realize it's a stupid thing to try and pick and choose what people should take literally and what they shouldn't, but I really, reeeeaally did not want to hear him say that

Ignorance is bliss
even if being naive is foolish and unremarkable, I would rather be a happy fool than a depressed intellectual

Oh to find the middleground...

But really, is it because i don't let you copy my homework?
Is it because i don't like it when you lump me in with all the hooligans running around this school?
Is it because i enjoy doing certains things?
Because sometimes it is so obvious that people are misunderstanding enjoyment for arrogance

It seems to me that in these years, and with these people, arrogance, or being "cocky" is such an issue that we're all on personal witch hunts to find and persecute everyone whom we deem so

Come oooon
"Fischer thinks he's good at soccer, when he's not"
NO, he enjoys it, that's why he's smiling when he's out on the field, not because he thinks he's amazing
And so what if he does think so! How are you affeceted by his alleged self-confidence?
Does it really make you that sick?

Or maybe we're all just so hungry for some drama to chew on that we take whatever snibbet of a mistake or a personality flaw and we run with it

hipocracy is a fun little word...